Always on my mind
Every day, every night
Your star burns so bright
Why did I push you away?
I was scared sometimes
You had a power like a lightning strike
When I’m on stage sometimes I lie
Say that I love singing these songs you left behind
And I know you always said, “It’s okay to cry”
So I know I can cry, I can cry
So I cry
Wish I’d tried to pull you closer
You pushed me hard made me focus
Your words, brutal, loving, truthful
I was petrified
You’re a hero and a human
Track was done I’d make excuses
You’d say, “Come on, stay for dinner”
I’d say, “No, I’m fine”
Now I really wish I’d stayed
Always on my mind
Every day, every night
Your star burns so bright
Why did I push you away?
I was scared sometimes
You had a power like a lightning strike
When I’m on stage sometimes I lie
Say that I love singing these songs you left behind
And I know you always said, “It’s okay to cry”
So I know I can cry, I can cry
So I cry
Guilty feelings keep me fractured
Got a phone call after Christmas
Didn’t know how I should act
I watched you dance online
Your sounds, your words live on endless
When I make songs I remember
Things you’d suggest – “Make it faster!”
Would you like this one?
Maybe just a little bit
Always on my mind
Every day, every night
Your star burns so bright
Why did I push you away?
I was scared sometimes
You had a power like a lightning strike
When I’m on stage sometimes I lie
Say that I love singing these songs you left behind
And I know you always said, “It’s okay to cry”
So I know I can cry, I can cry
So I cry
Loss, Memory, and Healing in “So I”
Charli XCX’s “So I” is a deeply personal and heartfelt ballad that explores the enduring impact of loss and the complexity of memory. The lyrics reflect on a close relationship with someone whose influence lingers long after their absence. The recurring lines about a star burning bright and the honest admissions of guilt and regret reveal the songwriter’s struggle with past decisions and unspoken emotions. The song’s chorus, anchored by the permission to “cry,” uncovers a journey toward emotional acceptance and healing. Through vivid imagery and confessional storytelling, Charli XCX captures the bittersweet experience of looking back, wishing for more time, and learning to let grief become a source of strength.
Song Credits
- Artist: Charli XCX
- Release Year: 2024